More rambling about Meet You At The Blossom

I’m going to Warsaw tomorrow and will be back on Thursday. It’s inconvenient to take my quite heavy laptop on such a short trip by train. But no laptop means that I will have to watch the new episode of my current beloved drama on Wednesday on my phone. And I really don’t like watching anything longer than 15-20 minutes on my phone. But at the current level of my obsession it’s absolutely impossible for me to wait with watching episode 7 to Thursday. How can I, especially after that emotional episode 6. 😉

In the meantime let’s talk about episode 6 some more. Because we found out a lot of backstory in this episode. But I admit all this courtly intrigue and a fight over the throne goes a little over my head. I’m so focused on our beautiful main romance (and on waiting for the secondary couples 😊 ) that I don’t pay much attention to all this talk about who did what to whom, and who killed whom, and who’s a prince and who’s a prince son.

I think I get more or less what happened in the past, but don’t ask me for a lot of details, because for now I also don’t really care that much. 😊

But this is what I got so far, with spoilers of course. Mainly drama spoilers with a bit of the novel spoilers. I don’t plan to read the novel, it doesn’t sound like something I would like. But I glanced at the novel spoilers once or twice out of curiosity. I just like to know things.

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So Huaien is a secret prince, but I suspected that before. As I understand it - Huaien’s mother was from Xue family (that family Xiaobao’s father helped destroy), and was beloved of the second prince, and she was kidnapped by the current emperor (the second prince’s brother) to be his concubine. But she still had a secret affair with the second prince and that’s how Huaien was born.

And I thought that the former emperor had three sons: the current emperor, the second prince – Huaien’s father, and prince Shen. But I saw someone mention that he had four sons, so I guess there is one more?

And according to the novel’s spoilers Huaien is really the emperor’s son, not the second prince’s son. And the second prince knows this, and that’s why he abused Huaien so badly.

The second prince wants to start the rebellion and overthrow the emperor. And he manipulated a few merchants and used them to accumulate wealth. The Jin family was one of them.

Xiaobao’s friend Su Yin is something like a titled prince. He wasn’t born a prince, but was given the title by his grandfather. I don’t know yet what his role will be in all this.

And here are my musings (with one pic) about that scene from episode 6.

For me that dubcon sex went a lot better than I expected. And listen, that scene is absolutely dubcon. I’m not denying that at all. But before Huaien pulls at the curtain, it really looks to me as if Xiaobao sort of gives a tiny nod to Huaien to go on. And after Huaien pulls the curtains close it looks like Xiaobao reaches out with his hand to pull Huaien down by the shoulder.

But it was toxic, no doubt about that. But also completely in character for Huaien. Who was shaped by his abusive father to be a cold, ruthless killing machine, and the only model of relationship he knows is his parents’ unhealthy, obsessive love. Which, he kinda repeats the same pattern here, doesn’t he?

Xiaobao is scared, but IMO not because he thinks Huaien will hurt him. He’s shaken because his beloved just cut someone’s hand off. And he’s scared that Huaien won’t believe that Xiaobao went to that brothel not to cheat on him but for one purpose only – to secure medicine for his father. And well, he’s right. Huaien doesn’t believe him.

And then after all that Huaien dreams about Xiaobao saving him again. I’m certain that Xiaobao will do that in reality, too.

And of course there is Huaien’s declaration:

“Jin Xiaobao, you tantalized me first. Since you’ve started it, you can’t go back. It’s okay if you can’t control yourself. I’ll control you. You can enjoy life and have no fears, and it’s all because of the wealth of the Jin family. Then, I’ll take everything from you so that you can’t tantalize anyone else. From now on, no matter in heaven or hell, you can only rely on me.”

*delightful shivers down my spine* This is so possessive and obsessive and dark. I love it so much. It hits my id dead on.

For me it feels like I was so in love with Xiaobao from the beginning that I couldn’t appreciate Huaien properly. I did love him, just not as much as I loved Xiaobao. But now... Now he went all over the top possessive and problematic and murdery, and voila – I am so, so in love. Beautiful, broken, violent men who fall so hard in love for the first time, and who are taught how to love by their cute and bright sunshine boyfriends, are so my type.

Ok, you know what? I now realized that Huaien actually reminded of Vegas Theerapanyakul a little – abused by his asshole father, raised to be a ruthless killer, mistreating his love interest. No wonder I love him so much. 😊

And I’ll end this post with the BTS pic of the kiss, because it’s beautiful and I love it: